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i was raped first by fear,
victimization came later.
i just regret
the mornings i wake up cold
and upset,
knowing each day that I walk
is just another game
of russian roulette--
that's right, spin the chamber again.
and yet, at each passing glance, or smile,
an extended hand, warmth for awhile,
i cannot help but stare in silence.
whispering a curse towards the captor
is harder than
screaming an apology for your naivete.
yet, sometimes I give a grin,
laugh harder than anyone else in the room,
while my heart hides in the closet that has become my ribs.
i enjoy myself most days,
only to, in the throes of midnight,
realize what's gone wrong.
and then I remember those days, weeks
maybe minutes, seconds ago--
when everything was wrong.
i cock the pistol,
click the trigger.
nothing. looks like i'll be facing
my guilt and numbness again
in a few hours.
for now,
i am just another statistic,
abandoned in a crowd,
and strangled by society.
victimization came later.
i just regret
the mornings i wake up cold
and upset,
knowing each day that I walk
is just another game
of russian roulette--
that's right, spin the chamber again.
and yet, at each passing glance, or smile,
an extended hand, warmth for awhile,
i cannot help but stare in silence.
whispering a curse towards the captor
is harder than
screaming an apology for your naivete.
yet, sometimes I give a grin,
laugh harder than anyone else in the room,
while my heart hides in the closet that has become my ribs.
i enjoy myself most days,
only to, in the throes of midnight,
realize what's gone wrong.
and then I remember those days, weeks
maybe minutes, seconds ago--
when everything was wrong.
i cock the pistol,
click the trigger.
nothing. looks like i'll be facing
my guilt and numbness again
in a few hours.
for now,
i am just another statistic,
abandoned in a crowd,
and strangled by society.
hope you like (:
no, i have never been raped. however, I decided to see if I could imagine the emotions that come afterwards. I don't mean to offend anyone, if my work does so.
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no, i have never been raped. however, I decided to see if I could imagine the emotions that come afterwards. I don't mean to offend anyone, if my work does so.
questions?
ask
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I think, lack of experience here too, that you do capture it well.
I've had some not so great experiences, and this is actually very good in the fact that it doesn't stray towards the general misconceptions but more towards a believable reality.
Idunno I think you write pretty[:
I've had some not so great experiences, and this is actually very good in the fact that it doesn't stray towards the general misconceptions but more towards a believable reality.
Idunno I think you write pretty[: